One Among the Many

The empty peace looks out
Sees what has been
“Says relationships with all women
Have been poor
Through this life form.”

Far from the madding crowd
Where love begins
I know not how
To relate, but I know we are One
Not two, not two no matter what my eyes see, ears hear
Not two, not two…

Only This empty nothingness
Peace, a heart full of grace
Overflowing if I allow
In relaxed receptivity…

An essential outpouring that washes clean
Slakes the thirst of the desiccated…

I know not from women
Nor from men
Venus Mars
Daughters sons
Suns moons
All are here in the cosmic dance …

Be danced among the many
Who are One.

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Tenderness

Rumi, artwork by Michael Greene

I’m in the middle of reading Brené Brown’s Daring Greatly wherein she speaks in a psycho-social manner about vulnerability and shame. It’s good stuff as far as it goes. I see her work as laying a kind of groundwork for the radical shift in consciousness, the miracle needed to change our lives and the world.  This morning I received a text “feeling like I’ve been dragged over a cheese grater.” This person has a great way with humorous metaphors. I know the feeling of raw exceedingly tender vulnerability that speaks to and can relate. When our good ole tried and untrue defenses come down, yeah howdy! How much energy do we put in trying not to be seen with our pants down! The resilience needed to remain in the vulnerable–openness continuum of Being This Human comes from a sense that everything that is occurring is valuable and worthy of our kind attention, our positive regard, our acceptance of ourselves as is. This incredible undoing and unlearning we are undergoing will bring up raw realness of such a sense of exposure we can hardly tolerate it but it is intimacy on the deepest levels, the intimacy we long for and without which we are miserable wretches. You know, that wretchedness that only grace assuages.

In our rawness we can become not simply vulnerable, but permeable to This something that is greater than we are, that is knocking on our inner door. So we are not simply at the effect of everything around us, we are receptive to what is within us that can resource us in life. From this, you may understand why people orchestrate dyads, true friend meetings in which vulnerability can be explored in a safe place with one another without it being interposed by sexual dynamics as well.

I read and wrote this as a note in my book, perhaps you’ll find it useful.


Daring to Be Permeable to the Divine

When I started asking participants about the experiences that left them feeling the most vulnerable, I didn’t expect joy to be one of the answers. I expected fear and shame, but not the joyful moments of their lives.

Excerpt From: Brené Brown. “Daring Greatly.” iBooks.
https://itunes.apple.com/us/book/daring-greatly/id512395427?mt=11

Without permeability, I don’t experience the divine nor the divine’s joy in Being Here alive and real. The cost of permeability is having our systems be open and vulnerable in an impermanent reality. Being connected and in communities/communion with our changelessness amid the ever-changing assists greatly. Belonging, reSoucefulness, that felt sense of Presence within, with us and actively engaged makes all the difference.

I, of myself, am not enough.
I see and feel my personal inadequacies every day. I fail frequently in some sense of the word. If I hide or cannot tell the truth about that, I am not permeable — I am defended. The truth is humiliating to the ego self and thank This that’s not all there is. We see all around us the inadequacies of people trying to do it on their own or having faith in some distant God that may or may not help out. We are conditioned to live like this and the insanity of it is hard to bear. Good news!

The intimacy permeability allows is excruciating. Hold on–what? Yes, excruciating! When This LHB (LightHearted Being) has access to us there’s nothing unknown or hidden. Even what we’ve hidden from ourselves gets exposed. We are becoming naked and restored to innocence and original blessing, but the process of the removal of defensive layers and being stopped, stripped bare even by the most loving Presence is a kind of vulnerability that leaves us quite raw. Heaven forbid someone should show up in our field and say something that inadvertently hits right smack dab into that place. Yikes! We’re likely to fall apart on the spot. We can feel quite fragile and it gets coded as weak, inadequate, not enough instead of strong, courageous, and valuable, right and good in our raw alive state.

We don’t trust one another and with good reason. Our trust was broken in relationship. We don’t simply sit and Be present with one another as is, entering in and being permeable to what’s here. We’re full of the 10,000 things and perhaps defended ourselves from whatever stimulation we’ve just had that was too much, feeling inadequate and out of touch with our inner reSourcing. How often do we quiet down, empty out, take in our surroundings, breathe and be, let alone notice our inner and outer cosmic comic consciousness, the One life we are, and rest in This Peace? In other words, center, align ourselves vertically and horizontally and start our conversation from that sweet spot that has everything This is available to us? More than enough with twelve baskets left over? How often do we benefit from the feast of living waters, fresh daily manna, and bread coming from the flow and substance of our true nature?

In a psycho-social realm based on painful scarcity, whether appearing as disproportionate wealth and poverty or simple inadequacy to the incredible complexities of the religious legal economic world of dominance and control the separated mind has made, we can easily feel woefully inadequate. Our defenses then come to bear. We are so busy rushing from one thing to the next we scarcely breathe, pun intended. We are running on our own limited resources unbenefitted.

Most of us leave the sanctuary found within via spiritual engagement the minute we get up or step outside. We run up into our minds immediately picking up the 10,000 things. That’s a basic defense against permeability vulnerability engenders and — oops! We are on our own again. I, of myself, am not enough but I have to deal with all the stuff. AND I don’t know how! (if I admit it) How I have longed for a clone to do all the stuff I don’t get to every day! It seems to take two or more people to live a single life… but what if it takes One? What if downsizing to a simpler life of highest values incorporated which includes the effort it takes all day every day for the mystical life of Being to essentially engage with every moment?

In This we can discover selfless effortless flow, fully engaged in the moment, resourced, creative, playful, enjoying and finding fulfillment regardless of outcome. What an investment! We have all felt it, experienced it at times, it’s actually natural. We can dare to be real and permeable to the divine that resources us to be in our lives, with one another in the risks of vulnerability.

Can We Be This Real?

Courage is a value I’ve discovered is central to my life, the way I live, and to my well-being. It’s the virtue at point 6 according to the Enneagram. It’s a heart-centered 
capacity and capability that allows us to stay in our experience and with one another even when it gets confrontative. It sets boundaries when we need them and gives us a sense of value, worthiness, and integrity when we stand up and in our truth. Veracity (the virtue at point 3) and the truth is another of the values I hold dear, not only truth-telling whether relative or sacred, but living into the truth of our unity that has been made so incredibly clear to me. The truth of our true nature and all that it is, is the Light of LightHearted that emanates in and through us when our inner permeability is working with our availability to be seen as we are, to tell the truth about our experience, the Whole truth inclusive of our Black Wholyness, the fathomless depth of our being as well as the goings on in the waves of the surface whether disturbed or placid, defended or scared vulnerable, risking all to be Real. How do we make ourselves safe for those around us to be real? How do we tell the truth and stay for its effect? How do they learn how to Be, and be vulnerable and appreciative of the importance of it, of staying with us as we are? It’s a complete cultural shift that begins with us, in our homes, workplace and with our friends. 

Can we Be This Real? That is my highest value that includes whatever is going on at the surface, with my human life as it is. To be 
available to let This breathe itself excruciatingly close into my experience as it is, no lies, cover-ups, letting all be known as only Omniscience can know it all by Omnipresently being all. There is no distance. For years I have inquired into the virtue at point 9, my home point: right action. It is allowing This to have Its way, to do the works. It is essential engagement with the moment by bringing all I Am to bear on my experience, pure loving kind compassionate empathetic unconditional Awareness awake and alive, knowing Itself to Be what is, All that Is, that ONLY is: the unity consciousness of LightHearted Being. We all have it, are fully equipped with it, but like the days before we knew about electricity, we don’t give ourselves access to it. Thus we only had firelight and candles, and long dark nights. And then there’s Omnipotence. Imagine having all the cosmic comic consciousness of This loving mystery having our backs all the live-long day! 

If I find myself experiencing disconnection, I know it isn’t actually real, though it is being experienced and not to be denied. What is meeting that experience? The Presence of awareness is always here, on board and available. “Seek ye first the 
kingdom of heaven and all else will be added unto you.” Where is this kingdom? Within. So in this situation, I turn to deeper than thoughts, feelings, sensations, perceptions experiences, the data banks of knowledge. What is here when all that is dropped for a moment? Thank you Gangaji, Papaji, and Ramana! It is literally essential to find out every time. Before being overcome by stressful experience, I stop, empty out, Be still and know, be where I am, notice beauty, harmony around me. Rest. Take a breath, breathe out all, breathe in all This. If I’ve become stressed, overstimulated, I’ve still got to stop and drop all the way down in, as well as outwardly connect with the natural realm of pure Being, the beauty around me to remind myself my story is not the whole deal. 

I don’t have to come up with courage on my own. Courage arises in the willingness of an open heart to Be This Real no matter what, and comes from what is not afraid, has no reason to fear even though the body shakes, the soul may even quiver. This has me, I’ve got This, and even that dualism disappears into only This Is 
upon occasion making Itself Real. From contact to connection, to communion to union. How? Because the conversation is continuously going on within me, in silence and in stirred consternation. I remember one day in contemplation being struck by Jesus’ words when he was giving thanks for the bounty about to be received but not yet manifest, “Thank you Father, I know that Thou hearest me, and Thou hearest me always.” I wondered what that was like, to be so certain of that and that the responsiveness was immediate, the invisible making itself visible right then and there. I wondered daily and for weeks, months I lived inside the inquiry, exploration, experimentation. I have since been given to realize it is always so, to feel sense and experience the essential conversation of This formless invisible Presence with Itself formed and visible in unique formations, infinitely, eternally. 

I had no such 
relationship with my own father. He said, “Children should be seen and not heard.” I actually tried to be pretty invisible as well, the archetypal lost child. To be seen. let alone express my feelings, to be vulnerable was exceedingly dangerous in my household. I knew nothing about it. I realized I knew nothing about the Father Jesus had such an amazingly close relationship with, “I and the Father are One.” I even wondered what kind of earthly father Joseph was who was in on the fact that we are all actually born of This that only is, and this particular child Jesus especially so being the culmination of generations of Essenes dedicating themselves to bringing forth the Messiah. It has taken a LOT of investment of dedicated time, energy, exploration, study, examination, truth-telling expression to get my system to the place where this relationship of unity is recognized and consciously participated in daily, on-going. Where is the focus of my attention? I have been unlearning at the unschool for the Holy Fool a long long time and the results are incredible, beyond my wildest dreams, hopes and imaginings and continuing to come unexpectedly, surprisingly.

photo by Julian Misliuc

This is Knocking at the Door to Gain Entrance, Let It In!

My portal, the door upon which This knocks, has been the present moment as is, I as I am in recognition of what actually Is and what relatively is being experienced. My subjective experience in one hand, and my knowing of the truth of life in the other, and the 
reconciliation that occurs in the willingness to tell the whole truth and nothing but, to be exposed at the deepest levels of my consciousness. What really allowed it was when I recognized that at the deepest level, beyond all the layers of defense built up around the hurts the primordial wound of separation and the many ways it plays out, was This loving embrace, This all-providing Presence. Over and over and over, in this situation and that one, this devastation and loss, and that confusing painful matter I applied the healing balm of truth and kind concern. This learning to value everything as it is as the golden opportunity; as the potential for This to act, and as the unfolding of This that Is all. It takes quite a bit for some of the crap experienced to become compost, to discover lurking under the surface is Its purity. To confidently experience that This is coming up through the asphalt and concretized reified beliefs in and deep imprinting of our separation. Ramana said that when we drop down in, the heart rises to meet us. It is so true! And amid all that the gift of humor, the humorous perspective that allows not taking everything so terminally seriously but cosmic comically.

I come back to simple joys in a humble unpretentious life, those that touch my heart and soul deeply and that I know are impermanent, just a fleeting moment in eternity. My life is abundant with them now, and I enjoy each and every one as fully as possible as they slip beyond my grasp as soon as they arise. If I were attached to those things, I’d be in a heap of misery. The glow fades, the day ends. But the 
deep dark womb, the black wholy Mystery always has more in store, and the trend is always to better, more full, deep, expansive experiences of Being This Hu-man, This One that only Is. 

All I am 
speaking of is the Wings of Freedom: presencing and inquiry — the means of getting to the true heart of the matter until the realization enters life as Itself. To me, it is the wholy point of human existence, and all the peace, harmony and fulfillment in life we could possibly want in relationships, work/contribution, re-creation, creativity, play and fun, adventure, aliveness beyond the need to be safe and secure, healthy with enough but inclusive of those human needs … well, there’s nothing denied us. We limit ourselves unconsciously and even consciously at times, thinking about, speaking aloud and acting upon, sharing culturally accepted misinformation. The discovery and deep profound realization that there is enough, we are enough, we have enough; that scarcity of separation that our economy and our interactions are based upon simply isn’t so is world changing — as we live it. And we can live it in the simplest of daily acts of generosity of spirit, kindness, offering space to one another to be as we are. To give and accept such offerings from one another as the greatest most valuable precious thing we could possibly give and receive: being real, true to the truth, open and courageously available to one another, honoring one another and our needs for silence, for boundaries that are permeable, negotiable, flexible and yet strong, a mutual upholding what is valued most in life, and our needs for genuine connection and belonging. Then we have lives of meaning and purpose that has nothing to do with the values born of the ScareCity culture. Move out of there pemanently! Such are the tender mercies we receive and can offer one another. So it is, and through us, so may it be on earth.

LightHeartedly, wholy with love, 
Anrael
anrael@lightheartedenterprises.com
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The Sounding Board

Morning dawns …

a fresh day, renewed renewing
inner arising brings 
the clear inner light
and quiet of Silence
the sounding board of Life

sincerity quickens the soul
with a love of truth
that surpasses all understanding —
everything is given way
in the giving way

the inner abiding ruthlessness
of merciful annihilating love
nails all movement to stillness —
momentarily eternal
unmoving endless presence
that is a pure absence
that eliminates everything
believed, indulged… forgives
gives for good and all

it is found in the deep places
where brokenness is denied
but not escaped forever
inescapable misery comes
knocking at the walls
of self defeat —
such mercy such mercy!

the sounding board
of silence resounds impeccably
no doubt, no fear
all is nothing here
thundering throughout all
the unspeakable truth

This only Is, I Am Is This
inclusively
in all the deep dark denied broken 
human heart mind belly soul This enters
as we let be
our pains
admitting them
admitting them…

submitting them to This living
love’s all-seeing knowing
unconditional scrutiny
where our waves break
on the shores of existence

nothing to be done
and This acts

through us
This sees
the brokenness and pain in action
embodied is subjected directly crosswise
amid it surrenders and loves,
magnificently
at grace’s behest, forgiving occurs
in the dream turned nightmare
believed and acted upon
even among those who love their best
and fail, are blind yet, lost
forlorn pure light enduring
what exists among the disenfranchised
disconnected until the pain of loss, lostness, 
grief is the unmistaken true calling home
of the sounding board within all. 
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Enter In

Valentines love fractal pattern

There is a simple map for the journey from here to Here. There is no distance between us and what we want and need most to live fully: our Self. To travel the non-distance to NowHere, enter in, intrepid heart, enter in. 

 
There are lots of fancy-schmancy roadmaps for seekers of something out there, all have their beauty and purpose, nothing wrong with them, no problem. Many people enjoy the long route that seems to lead them somewhere they want to go, they have many signposts along the way, “Yes you’re getting there. See, this is better and that is better.” In my life I am eternally grateful for the ruthless compassion that found it’s way to me to call off the search, to stop, be still and fully enter in and engage wherever I found myself. What I found/find within every experience mundane, sublime, horrifying in full-spectrum human life is the treasure I longed for most: Mine own Beloved Self, here, there and everywhere. The one who longed and sought ended, the lost is found in I Am; in the pure absolute where even that sound disappears and pure all-powerful thunderous Silence reigns supreme.
 
How does this come to pass? It is to stop, Be still and know that I Am, and enter in to what is being experienced and avoided: both the sublime as well as the horrific. When we tell the unvarnished truth that we do not live the truth that has been revealed and opened in our consciousness, we find that it is due to one thing: we don’t want to enter in to our experience, but we want it to change. On top of that, we resist change, comfortable in our hells until they become too uncomfortable. That seems to take a lot, doesn’t it? We exhaust ourselves seeking something to assuage the pain and suffering, we even become evildoers, living backward in our pursuits, anything please—but simply enter into it, face it ourselves directly. If you’ve been with me for long, I have undoubtedly asked you, “what is the very good reason you are doing that?” The answer is usually that the conditioning endured by children in states of powerlessness proved overwhelming, traumatic and we don’t want to experience it ever again. Period.  Avoidance at all costs, and it costs a terrible exacting price, rather than A-void-dance.
 
Trauma is the perception that our life is at risk. Reading this, the good news is that you have survived it. So why is it so difficult to enter in now, when your life isn’t at risk? Because the identification that formed around the wound from the trauma(s) will cease to exist. Childhood is traumatic, just growing up even in basically adequate circumstances is traumatic. A person once asked me, “Is there any birth that isn’t traumatic?” Perhaps not. I know of one that occurred in a state of ecstasy in an ocean cove with dolphins. The way we enter this world is often the exact metaphor we live out in life. That’s what made rebirthing such a powerful technique. What rebirthing actually is, is entering in to the experience directly, dynamically and the rebirth takes place, the old trauma breathed and washed away. Hot tubs and breath work may be necessary to undo that trauma, but really, we are being birthed every moment—every moment we die to the moment before. We tend to ignore this fact of life, avoiding death, avoiding the void we don’t know is also the womb of infinite potential. We want our mommies and daddies instead. They or somebody is going to give it to us by god!

Cry Uncle!

To enter in, intrepid explorer means to stop, drop everything, empty out, nakedly innocently wisely enter in consciously, wide awake, this moment here and now as is: As Is inclusively. For those who haven’t yet had an inkling or experience of the treasury of natural perfection that awaits us within every experience, it’s quite an act of courage that arises amid a terrified vulnerability that the brave and valiant heart quakes in front of, but enters in anyway. I’ve traveled down many roads, learned and forgotten more tools and techniques than can possibly be implemented to arrive at this simplicity: enter in. It’s often a screeching screaming leap of faith in to the horror and out into the unknown. In my own enduring discipline and that of those I am honored to companion, it may take much to get to the no-holds-barred wrestling match that pins us down finally and utterly until we give way, yield, cry, “uncle!” Frequently we are just too exhausted to get up again—we finally die on the cross and find the sweet spot that awaits us there. I remember vividly when it occurred to me never get up again, but stay down in, all the way down in until the non-distance from here to Here takes place. I call this experience meeting in the heart of truth. It’s the NowHere where everything that matters takes place, the holy playground upon which we meet light heart to light heart, soul to soul, lover and beloved of truth, belly to belly, broken down and lifting up as love has its way with us. Until love and the truth of unity set us free to love impossibly, impeccably, beyond comprehension, all-inclusively with Self selflessly, LightHeartedly.
 

The Companion doesn’t provide anything that isn’t already Here. No great display of magical siddhis/powers necessarily takes place. The abracadabra mantra indicates the deep attuned conscious union with what is. Sometimes we slog through the muck and mire of long-abandoned areas of consciousness as light bearers of pure awareness. From having entered in and disappeared in This, the LightHearted Companion emerges as the Holy Fool of and for This love. The reflecting appearance of a Someone simply is essentially engaged and conversing from the absolute, perhaps playfully with joy, or ruthlessly cutting through the structures of nonsense, but always revealing what already is so simple by Being LightHearted, who we are, what I This Am is. Entering in, all the way down in is ultimately a disappearing act that empties out, is full of potential and births all.

 

The End of Usury
 
No human conditioned mind can grasp, fathom or use what This is. The mistake so many make, and so many are making money from, is the idea that we can use This to “manifest” a better human life, free of suffering, and even seemingly altruistically do good(code for being acceptable, worthy, belonging). Busting that hubris comes along in the organic unfolding always. This past year in the offerings that include my own total experience, an excursion into what I came to call the sacred wound occurred. Amazingly, yet another level of pain and woundedness arose in my system due to the satguru life is, and among the many revelations that occurred was the recognition and even deeper valuing of being, entering in as is— what takes place could be called healing, but there is no one and nothing in need of healing. Whole making, peacemaking, fun making and love making in life, daily life As Is, happens when we enter in—my life fulfilling, unreasonably joyous and free is a testimony to that fact.
 
I’ve looked long and hard at what changes, grows, evolves, awakens, embodies and what does not that is already whole, perfect and complete within itself and the marriage bond of love between the two that are one. The changeless and the ever-changing are indivisible and when we enter in, we stand in our humanity as essential to the fulfillment of the divine as the divine is the fulfillment of humanity.
It’s crucial to find this out for oneself, not take my word for it but let the word point you to the truth of the matter. It’s a relationship of unity that is of mutual benefit, and all our relations are to be derived from it. It’s the meaning and purpose of human life, the point of existence that shines out from the core: the star tetrahedron, dynamic double torus and black whole we are. It all reveals when we are ripe. Ripeness occurs naturally as we enter in, letting all be as is while the truth actively engages us until satisfaction arises—only in conscious union.
 
We suck at relationships and we are a relational species here in the land of infinite diversity in infinite combinations that are all one. The cause of this is the same: we are unwilling to enter in, humbly die to our self, selfish needs and desires, avoidance of pain, and yield to a love that demands everything of us, all of us. That level of maturity escapes those who haven’t entered in enough to have the willingness to do whatever it takes to stay true to the truth of our unity no matter what. That means to stop the action, be still and burn in all the drive and momentum to follow the course long laid out that ends in the same known hell and damnation. There’s always an excuse, and that’s the ruthlessness of the merciful annihilating all-powerful absolute truth and love that we are. Facing that, burning in shame and humiliation, acknowledging we have betrayed what we know to be so once again. We let our conditioning be more powerful by giving it the power to dominate us. It’s awful to face, we’d so much rather not expose to the light the darknesses of the unconscious shadows within that run the show, rule the day and our interactions. Good news: This is an end to that. Blessed are the truly contrite repentant sincere souls for they shall know forgiveness, salvation, grace and gratitude boundlessly.
 
If we do not feel we have the ability to face all that and tell the truth, we will not “go” the non-distance from here to Here. We will not unlearn how not to be This we are. The remedy begins with telling the truth, not with judgment, harshness, blame, guilt or shame, but with humility and kindness, knowing our saving grace is at work in the very heart of truth. We tell the truth, “I haven’t got what it takes of myself and I don’t really believe anyone does or that I can access to what does” thus laying bare and entering in hopelessness, helplessness, powerlessness at the core of our despair and desperation.  The machinations of survival of a “me” that doesn’t exist but as a thought tend to show up. These patterns are powerful, tricky, exist and operate at subtle levels, but are not as powerful and all-pervasive as This Stillness. We reach the end of two powers, good and evil. When This takes hold in our lives we are goners. It’s already a done deal no matter how many more lifetimes it takes. If you’re reading this now, it could be now for you—the only time there is. Why wait? Why put it off? For what purpose?
 
I have tested this, gambled my entire life on what has been revealed that it might be lived fully. A few years ago in place of a birthday celebration, I was inspired to create a day of celebrating Being This Alive. It’s an everyday matter, but we single out special days, holy-days, to make some kind of a fuss, an occasion. August 8, 2015, the 8:8:8 Lion’s Gate seemed an excellent day to invoke the sovereign Real. It’s the big(by infinite grace) deal of abundant life available to all, not made a big deal of, but shared with anyone curious enough to ask.
 
Take, for example, that fact that we frequently wait for the funeral to recognize how deeply we appreciate someone’s unique Presence and their gifts—including those of propelling us headlong into what we’d rather avoid. Crash! Brain splitting headaches, pains in the neck and elsewhere get all our attention. We want to use the other to avoid or to make it all better, get the missed and longed for pleasure that is the natural experience of union we lack by avoiding, not entering in. Thus we suck at relationship, whether it’s with our true nature or with one another, we all are involved in lack and usury, indebtedness, withholding, giving power away to an undependable inadequate (to us) other, impotent rage and hatred at that arise, are entertained and indulged, and the fear of abandonment and death keep us bound up. This completely overlooks that passionate abundant life we are that can burst forth within us and from us as our own unique contribution to life as This life.
 
The Direct Route Home
 
The direct route, the only map you’ll ever need, is to enter in as is. Presence, inquire/experientially explore, Be Still, this trifecta works in a dynamic union. Amid the nothing ever happens of the absolute, everything happens: implosions, explosions, big bangs, breakthroughs, breakdowns of insufficiencies and compensatory structures built around them. When we look at the psyche, that’s what we see. When we look at society, we see institutionalized separationism abounds, manmade means of domination and control we call patriarchy and its worshipped transactional economy as the only means of getting. It all is coming down as This is rising up within us all. It’s a collective upwising as Swami Beyondananda calls it. We are the coming of the Holy Fool of and for This love, going sane in an insane world. We cannot help ourselves, there’s an internal imperative externalized in dramas and crises all over the sickening planet and throughout the ailing dying species that all are opportunities for inclusive whole-making right within us—our very own consciousness that is the one consciousness right here and now, invoked, embodied, forgiving, embracing, liberating and manifesting.
 
So as the I-LightHeart-You Day Valentine offering, even if you cannot love yourself or what is in your life or the world this moment, do not let anything stop you from stopping, entering in deeply and fully this moment as is. Be still, and know that I This Am, and let flow whatever arises within—you’re functioning as a clearinghouse for human consciousness that can offer the purity of Being as living translucence. There is no greater act of love than to lay down one’s life for one’s True Friend, the one within and appearing as all our relations without; to give all that one is and has to be true to the truth, authentically even unto the death. “You’ll be the death of me—YAY!!!” It’s how the real is recognized as Real, and the no distance is traversed. For I-LightHeart-MySelf Day, give yourSelf This, enter in and find it already Here, yourself as self and other already This, as is, wherever, whenever, however, with whomever you are. Stop and stay, insist This reveal amid the distress, whatever it takes as long as it takes. Be in it, essentially and completely engaged, don’t hold back—be totally real, tell the truth respectfully of all involved regardless of safety factors. Let the bravery of your indomitable invincible heart take over.
 
In this lies all that we long for forever. All the glories organically unfold, the deepest secrets discovered the world over in lineages that proclaim the same thing in different ways, offering distinct and valuable facets of infinity. It is indigenous, inherent, organic and real, proceeding at the pace of nature, of true nature birthing and incarnating, manifesting and liberating as a whole. Stop trying to get there, somewhere else, Be Here Now, as Ram Das said so long ago. The treasure, the diamondesque pearl beyond all price is right here. Take the direct route to NowHere in faith, stubborn determination, desperation, whatever you’ve got—Be This brave, it’s within you to do so. Come to Be still and know yourSelf as what does it all gracefully, mercifully, ruthlessly annihilating all that is malformed by loving it to death. Come alive as abundant life. It awaits us all within, pumping that brave heart of light that truly wants what it actually can have, because This is actualizing Itself in, as and through us only and aways Now. It’s gospel: it/we/i/This is Here now, nowhere else but right here, this now, and this now, and This Now. Stop everything and find out for yourself without delay! Have a happy I-LightHearted-MySelf day! Yes, Holy Fool (it takes One to know One) here’s your invitation to enter in the holy playground of This LightHearted Being you are and enjoy yourSelf to the fullest, as This lives its abundant life to the fullest in, as, through US the gorgeous magnificent unity self of This we are.

 
As a voice inside me once said and I immediately obeyed, Don’t just read it, do it! Now and always My Beloved, Now and always, before all and unto the end, to the beyond and back to right here again. I lay down my life for My True Friend, for My Beloved I die is ecstasies of union, rapturous blissful union amid mundane daily life, loving the dishes unwashed, the windows clean, the paperwork piles, the policeman that reminds via ticket that I haven’t got my papers in order, the friend that reaches out, the responsive outreach that embraces it all, enters in with, selflessly, fearlessly demonstrating This Love Is for as long as it takes whatever it takes. And it takes all. It is all in—in order to give forth, to offer out the blessèdness. The flame of Love burns brightly like the life-giving sun right here in This heart. Blessed are those who die in love for they shall know the love, the life that never dies nor ends. May all enter in as is,
 
LightHeartedly, as always, Anrael
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My Soul Doth Sing

Why would i ever cling
to so fragile a thing
as a thought?

It all comes to naught.

Wisps of mist tendered thin
on heaven scent wind
breathing life without strife.

But to defy we reify
and deify this thing
called I
right along with me and my.

Reifying magics bring on apace
a case of concreatisis in place
of Life’s seeds alive.

In cracking open concretely
does the flower jive so sweetly.

Concretizing as real is the pain
from which to refrain;
the hell bound deification
from which i need a permanent vacation.

Vacate the premises
of I some body have some thing to gain.
That way is loss
and being lost, I’ve found

upon investigation this solidly bound
and kept I isn’t there at all!
Concretized foundations crumble
and man-made houses of cards fall.

In the absence of this no-thing
my soul doth sing.

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BIG* Helping of Humble Pie

Universal Life Serving Up Some Humble Pie!

My recent ingestion of PIE (Presence Incorporating Everything) regarding car and finances was handled so beautifully by Grace acting through several of The Belovèd kin I Am has offered broadening deepening realization. Realization is a system upgrade: no one is becoming more realized, the system is undergoing transformational upgrades only, always.
 
Finding my experience rich with knowledge brought forward over the years and yet nothing beats the aliveness of this moment and the current penetration of Presence taking up the system into an as yet unknown FUNctional (Freedom Unlimited Now) Wholeness. *By Infinite Grace (BIG), This unfolds it’s natural Perfection only always consistently constantly. Our systems accept it though relaxed conscious open receptivity and the natural evolution of This in form within the time-space continuum is affected at all levels Holyfractalgraphically. What this means is that from the minutiae of the smallest particle, referred to as the Plank particle, or Adamantine particles, the pure Substance of Being, spiraling up to the gross levels of our fantastic inter dimensional bodies of consciousness all the way out to the astronomical, and inclusive of the formless Presence, the entirety of our deep ecological system of unity consciousness is effected. The hologram in which each particle contains all the information of the whole is a fractal in which patterns reoccur in progressively smaller scales. In realization experiences, our conditioned systems are relieved of improper conditioning to the false. Inhabited by a false god, the ego (edging God out — ego) full of continuing reception of false information: the collective disagreement field of separation consciousness, the system is systematically and graciously being brought to rights. In other words, beyond the capacity of our linear rational minds, the realizing and actualizing Presence is at work though experience to bring all of the incredible display of consciousness into accurate formation, naturally, because This Is what it Is.  Our systems are utilized to the fullest degree in shifting the resonance of the collective whole, the Holyfractalgram of existence.
 
My recent foray into the holodeck program (thanks Gene Roddenberry) and divine dramedy of car trouble and appearance of inadequate finances which was quite a historical encounter that set my system into a floundering not experienced for quite awhile has brought forth the “calling it real” confounding conundrum of human life. I cannot preach “let it be and unfold as it is and engage consciously” without walking the talk, and the walk that day was difficult. I knew I was in trouble already on my early morning first light walk with my suddenly recalcitrant dog trying to get it done before I left home for the appointment with the car. Dear Koie was actually a reflection of my own recalcitrance about what it has taken to get the heater on my car fixed. My efforts to get Koie to come so I could get going into town were all for naught. It became all too clear that he was not coming anywhere near me just because I needed him to; because I was supposed to get somewhere by 8 am and had to leave him home for the day. As I drove to town I realized that my energies were being guided by the external. Even now I see more ways in which the inner flow was abandoned and differing motivations were running the system. So by the time the car got to Durango I was already eating Humble Pie and quite enjoying the humility offered. Found it both bemusing and delectably nourishing. Had a big dollop of joyous jubilation to go with it.
 
Went off to Durango Joe’s to hang out with good cheer on this cold winter’s morning. About two hours later the call came in, thermostat’s also broken, needs replaced so the engine doesn’t overheat and blow up, another 190 dollars or something which I could not quite take in, felt my energy drop as I watched the idea of the tenuousness of my financial state rear it’s ugly head again. I could not make myself marshal the forces of God to obliterate the thoughts and fearful anticipations. My state had changed once again affected by the external appearance regarding the area that has perpetually challenged and been a source of realization for years. I walked into the holodeck in a semiconscious state beleaguered by the constant situation of joyously gifted gifting and inadequate FU-UNding — quite a contrast for one so richly endowed. Very aware in the real rawness of emotional reaction, physical actions that I was “in it” and noticing that it was so hard to let it unfold itself, hands off the wheel, while not indulging, a kind of razor’s edge. The experiencing of burning humiliation being the theme of this Winter Solstice gateway now for me, together with sadness, frustration, doubt, fear, wavelet after wavelet of emotions flowing through, watching the belief where I thought enough donations had come in to get me through the month and possibly to the first of the month bills evaporate once again. Didn’t quite evaporate into pulsating formless abundance in my consciousness, though. Have to tell the truth here.
 
“How is it possible that I am still dealing with this?” The evidence is clear: because it’s still vibrating in my system as real, an experiential felt sense of scarcity still plagues. It was a strange day, ill-at-ease day, just here with the unfolding, the desire for comfort, the “if I were a drinker I’d be driven to drink by this!” burning in the desire to binge. Ach! So painful! Kindness coming from friends, very nice, but not touching the pain — as I write this now, it’s an old pain of this lifetime of no mother commensurate with the profound sense of Divine Mother, the all-embracing enfolding One that lives here now. A friend recently shared the experience of physical bonding that occurred when she got to be with her birth mother recently. Keenly felt that there’s no one left with my genetics except the children of my half brother and sister, and no one replaces the birth mother. Some adoptive parents are wonderful, and some birth mothers are awful, and the reverse is also true. There’s just no particularly easy way of dealing with our human creature-hood that longs for what it didn’t get. Fortunately, Grace is available.
 
This is why spiritual kin are so important. Being with those who understand life in a similar fashion, are engaged with it in Essence and can share experience in safety, mutual understanding and grace, for when we are in the holodeck we need someone to come along and say, “End program!” It may still be unfolding, it doesn’t always work, but at least the Light has come along in a real and consequential way to say, “This isn’t all there is to this.”
 
  https://youtu.be/_Nvk32S7IY0 Star Trek Next Generation, “End Program…Now!!!”
 
If we’re really lucky, someone knows how to Be Presence fully and in unconditioned conscious contact remains with us with good reflections, good questions, profound patience, Silence and Stillness that allow us to dive deep into our experience, dropping all the way through the abysmal black Whole. The very real expertise of being no one doing nothing allows Presence to vibrate in the Truth that is emerging into the distressed person’s system such that it is simply already actualizing in the Unified Field. The morphogenic resonance of our True Nature embodying in joyous loving responsiveness activates in the Companion’s system what is needed for restoration. The adept system which is open and receptive naturally incorporates and feeds, offers what is needed without thought, strategy, motivation to help or heal, but in the realization what is needed is already so.
 
We need one another to Be This actualizing Presence, This Immanence of Being so it is Real in a fully human way, embodied and lived. The True Companion Is within us all, and at this time of year we celebrate Its return, Its holy birth within each and every one of us, within the planet’s core. It is Our Collective coming forth of the Light onto the planet, into this human realm of existence. Many of us miss it, or don’t even know what the annual cycle of Return and Emergence actually is, let alone consciously participate. We get all caught up in and stressed about holiday gatherings and celebrations driven to distraction by externals dictating our every move in what has become an exceedingly materialistic show.

Christmas Fractal

 
The saga with my wonderful car isn’t over, but the loveliness of the unfolding included $600 of donations coming in by the end of that very same day! Absolutely blew away most of the residuals of the day’s difficulties. Some few leftovers of Humble Pie are clarifying and being consumed in the course of this writing, This Expressing. The richness of the Real includes our very human experiences. Experiencing is the amazing feedback loop of This pure formlessness in direct communion with Itself in ever-changing formations that reflect consciousness, collective and individual in remarkable ways. The incredible mutual benefit of the dynamism of the Infinite Invisible with the Visible is of unsurpassable magnificence, far outshining the material realm on its own, but illuminating the material in glories of pure Being that astound.
 
What is the point to this Solstice Christmas Story? Each one reading will come to their own heart of the matter and I would love to hear them. For this particular emanation body, the open system of This embodying impregnating, birthing, emerging, evolving, growing, maturing Wisdom and Compassion and all the riches of This Unfolding Natural Perfection: deepening trust, shades of disconnection and scarcity residuals brought into the ever unfolding enfolding Holyfractalgraphic Fold, the redeeming Wholeness of Being This that Only Is. Simply put, “quietness and confidence shall be thy strength.” Am so happy that whenever needed, these BIG helpings of humble pie come to the table. What a thanksgiving feast!
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Thanks Giving

Once upon a time decades ago on a planet near you, there lived a woman who heard that gratitude was a beneficial spiritual practice. She tried to be grateful. She tried hard to take the prescribed medicine of sitting quietly at the end of each day, searching through the day for something — anything to be grateful for — barely if ever succeeding. It was pitiful! Her gratitude journal day by day was slim-to-none and soon abandoned. Can you relate?

Today this woman is no more. In her place is rejoicing. She gives freely of This Love knowing that gratitude is a boundless attitude of simply Being This in a Real-m in which only This Is. The two are One.

How is This accomplished? It’s not. It’s a given. We cannot accomplish what is already so. However, there is a how to the pitiful suffering of misidentification and misunderstanding. The ego’s self-surviving machinations, coupled with the wounded child’s painful deficient emptiness, make for a toxic stew pot of malnourished existence. Even our Thanksgiving feasts are like that. It’s the very illness the indigenous people saw when the refugees and immigrants, fugitives of their time — the explorers and settlers seeking the new world — found their way to these shores. Unfortunately, they brought the old world with them. Fears and judgements, competition and rivalry, scarcity and deficiency — the how — were not liberated in the freedom of a new beginning.

The Giving Way, practiced by indigenous people giving away all for the good of all, is an actual ritual, a ceremony of life and love which is highly regarded by native peoples. It is the source of the original Thanksgiving feast. It was taken advantage of and later actually forbidden by US governmental powers. It was and is a threat to the economy. Hence, the current day stand all tribes of native people are taking at Standing Rock Sioux Reservation represents an over five hundred year history of opposing philosophies and views of Life.

Giving Way has more profound implications for sacred life. The self-serving ego gives way its existence so that the Essence of Life may prevail. This is the greatest gift any of us can give.  The Giving Way of Life benefits all people, planet, all the sacred universe of Being. Life is then realized to be a matter of living by grace, giving such that the glory of the Presence of This all- powerful Love may be known. No one, no ego can do this. It is how This we are naturally functions — we don’t have to and in fact can’t do it. Therefore there is no how.

Perhaps when the First Nations of Turtle Island greeted the English saying, how they really meant how on earth can you be this crazy? Perhaps they greeted and gave generously to the settlers with lovely innocence in unity, knowing to:

 
Open to receive, the Giving Way

Open to receive and share the Giving Way

 

For a long time, for the woman in question, it seemed as if she was seeking the Truth to set herself free from suffering in the delusion of separation. She practiced daily and almost constantly to realize what is real and true, authentic and alive. In that process it seemed as though the seeker kept dying in the finding and in being found by inherent inner Peace, Silence and Stillness. The vacillations of incarnating as somebody doing something and dying over and over eventually killed her. Her heart was broken open again and again as deeper and stronger compassion for human suffering and its causes arose in her experience. Her love for humanity became boundless in the Light of This sacred Heart.

Finally word came from an Indian man known fondly as Papaji, who through his disciple Gangaji said, Call off the search! The seeker is Who is seeking. Our intrepid seeker was just confused in identity by virtue of conditions of separation consciousness. Unconditioned consciousness was revealed as her very nature and being. The Presence was realized and over time embodied and lived as one complete all-inclusive whole. She discovered the secret of the powerful action: live the highest truth you have recognized whether or not you are experiencing it.

Cleave to Jesus. Our whole life must be simply woven into Jesus.  

Saint Mother Teresa 

Jesus as Christ represents and embodies Love and Freedom; Unity Consciousness. Cleaving to Unity Consciousness and inquiring into experience, diving into the heart of the matter with presence (unconditioned conscious awareness) revealed to her that Presence Is the Essence of everything. This happenstance, that feeling, that thought, sensation, divisive relationship, situation and circumstance — they all showed the deeper dimensions and aspects of Essence working out throughout her being and all life’s experiences.  An inner insistance to find and know the truth and the Real no matter what was actually This Love and Grace in action in her soul, mind, heart, body and spirit. Nothing but the whole perfect and complete Truth would do. The feelings of rightness, accuracy, benevolence and well-being that followed on its heels were just the icing on the most nourishing feast of all — the daily manna supplied without ceasing from the Within to the without. Gratitude gives way to rejoicing as miraculously, perception of the most misbegotten experiences is raised up in unity consciousness. She, as a little child was told a foundling myth of being dropped off at the back door by Chief Katonah. Her family gave her a tribal name: Gigglywachemach. Aptly named, she giggles a lot these days.

The Truth she realizes is that This stays, remains always as Omnipresence. Right in the midst of and with all our human experiences, This, our LightHearted True Nature, Is Being Human. This is transforming, transducing, transmuting the malformed misperceptions when our consciousness is open and receptive Hereunto. Realization embodies in morphogenic resonance with primordial sound. The Word is made flesh in original innocent blessing as the direct emanation of Original Cause. We actually live in the Garden here and now innocently wise giving way to This; in This Giving Way.

What is being described is the literal unadorned truth: we live as the as yet untapped potential of Being This Alive in human expression. Our far from pitiable woman lives the ceaseless creative expression of the self-actualizing Presence. Its constancy is ensouled in her Life of Being This Only, This that only Is. This gives all Itself, gives Its all in the Holy Instant, the eternal Now in which all time and space exists simultaneously. She lives like a Holy Fool in the instantaneity and intimate immediacy of the spontaneous arising that cannot be foretold or anticipated: never been before, never will be again, gone as soon as it expresses, Giving Way to the next wonder of ceaseless benevolent generosity of Spirit. She enjoins all who reach out to her through generous offerings shared freely in order for each to discover what is Real.

This is how she lives. There was nor is anything she can do to make it so; it simply is a matter of fact of True Nature. As such it is divine science, a lawful, orderly, and organized open living system of conscious knowing dynamic aliveness: spiritual ecology. In the whirling ever-changing nature of expression in formation, This Life is an on-going creative work of art never completed nor finished, yet derived from wholeness, perfection and completion of unsurpassable beauty and brilliancy, splendor and glory. Because This we are is incomprehensible, beyond all conceptions of the mind, yet fully alive and present right here, we are a grand unsolvable living Mystery. How wondrous to Be This Alive!

In and as This, we are enabled and empowered to walk freely, untrammeled in a world of madness that is daily marching toward oblivion in incarcerated, limited and identified thoughtforms and beliefs. We can brave the torturous prison camps and insane asylums of desperation that lack conscious awareness of This unconditionable Love alive. We can Be Giving This a-Way and that-a-way to every one we meet and to the world we, as This, encompass with our full, whole and complete overflowing Being. We are given to live as mystics without monasteries, in the sublime Real-m, the great universal satsang hall of pure Being in this world but not of it.

 
Loving the Earth Within

Encompassing with Love the Earth Within

Rejoicing, we draw to us those ripe for awakening, realizing and living This only. We can be deeply moved by the suffering of our companions — the One we all are — and embrace all in the open ever-loving Heart of This LightHearted Being. As This, we are free to access and respond accurately and precisely to the formation of the moment by virtue of Omniscience — Omnipotent and Omnipresent — the Almighty trifecta of our True Nature purely and humbly, solely (soul-ly) by virtue of Being This Real, This that Only Is.

We are The One and Only. We’ve only to relax and open Within, stop internal activity long enough to Be Still and Know, and This Substance flows directly in to infuse and overflow the loving cup of our unique, essential and instrumental life and expression. So let’s all give thanks for the unknown blessing already on Its Giving Way. We are The Holy Fool enraptured in and by This Love. And that’s the Truth! 

 
 

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The writing of this could not have been completed without the kind and awakened editing assistance of Amaya, co-creator extraordinaire. Many thanks for her incredible participation in This Unfolding living LightHearted Mystery we are.
 
 
 
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Preeminent LightHearted Being

Looking at this world on Father’s Day, Solstice Stargate, and the astrological mutable grand cross that signifies a collective realization of unity consciousness, it can be seen that conflict and opposition is giving rise to greater, stronger actions of Peace, of kindness, forgiveness and Love.

Something focalizes the energy of distress, of oppositional disorder, which gives rise to a response arising in the heart and soul of people which moves them, moves us to act which actually is to embody and emanate what really Is. It’s an arising of Unity Consciousness to act for the mutual benefit of all, inclusively. We are pointing to the natural movement of This we are awake, arisen, alive and actively engaged in our world from a place of deep recognition that it’s all This unfolding and actualizing. It’s a natural movement of Love, of the courage empowered by This Love, to rise up and stand for what abides in the human spirit made conscious in the human soul and acted out by the mind, heart and body in aligned harmonic conscious union come what may. There’s no protest in this movement, it’s simply embracing what appears in living Truth of Unity.

In our journey in life, in deep self-examination, we discover that This light and love pervades all our inner places of darkness and woe, especially as we give This free reign. That’s the nature of sovereignty, of the divine mother & father if you will, within us, bestowing everything needed for our full, whole, complete & flourishing lives. We are the holy spirited wild essence child, the Only Begotten One and we are meant to live and function in concert, in aligned harmony with one another as a whole Holy Being. We experience that This, however we describe it, pervades all places of darkness and woe in our world through us – not some outside force acting upon us raining down damnation or mercy – god no! But within and through us This comes to earth to lighten the Wu Wei for all.

We humans, each and all, are essential for This to be among us, in the world but free of it. It’s an inside job that works its way out. We begin through many seemingly small acts of generosity of spirit, extending ourselves to be of mutual benefit in any way we can. That’s how This we are rolls! It’s not what we do, it’s the mode in which we act: generously, because it’s the inner impetus of considered wise compassionate joyous spontaneous free love, with no thought of return.

As This becomes our modus operandi, we begin to see it everywhere, like right now in Orlando for example. In light of the darkness of those who would judge, condemn, eviscerate those who have loved and lost, people are simply showing up to offer space and room for those who need to grieve in peace, safe from the invasion of those who insanely rejoice in their loss. In large numbers, people from many walks of life and literally paving the way for the many funeral processions to proceed without interruption. It’s an act of respect and caring by many many people. How wonderful to witness and experience the recognition active in us that we are in This together and that’s what really matters! 

To use semi-Christian lingo: this full moon solstice Father’s Day the Holy Father and all the hosts of Heaven, the Divine Mother birthing all celestial emanation embodiments have conceived and brought forth a Child of innocent wisdom, love and joy. We all of us, without exception, are This preeminent LightHearted Being of Unity Consciousness and it is time to take our place in the Solstice Sun! All That Is supports our living in a dimension of Love right where we are no matter how dark it may look: only This Light Is. The Light within the open heart ever shines lighting the way, lighting up the unified field that Is already the light, quiescent, the substance of This that all is awaiting the Holy One’s command and activation on the ground.  Arise, shine and give out the glory directly experienced within.


This all sounds lovely, it is the natural movement of our Being. So what keeps us from living it? On this Father’s Day, make it a Holy Father’s Day, check in and see what your relationship with the Father is, earthly and heavenly — they frequently are linked. I often wondered about this relationship Yeshua/Jesus had with his father/Father in heaven which he said was within us, a relationship of Unity so profound and real it radically alters reality as we know it — even still today.

What is your relationship with authority – external, internal? How about autonomy, contact and unity?  How’s your superego? Have you discovered the internal authority of the holy spirited wild essence child going about the family business acting in the Name by the Word delivering us from duality, dispelling the illusions of separation and darkness?  Have you found your inner holy fool for This Love?

Can you feel and sense into the infinity of good within you which is evidence of your oneness with the infinite source of your being?

This that gives its Life to us; holy parentage of the infinite formless if you will, gives with an intent for all it is to be awake, consciously at Home free, fulfilled, growing, flourishing, happy and joyous. All of creation is the expressive fulfillment of the Lover & Belovèd in dynamic union that expresses and is This Love we are. One glorious vibrant emanation body born of formless pure Love that is so natural and present we overlook and miss it, thinking/believing something else is real. Nothing else exists.


This Solstice Stargate, allow for an opening that brings all This Is forth to our world, to all our relating with all our relations, one kinship of Love everlasting. The Stargate is open in pure ascendency of Light, sun & full moon together, yin & yang, lover & Belovèd encompassing all the earth yearning to live free in conscious unity with all. Let’s claim This as  our Life, the one and only Life now. Let’s live from the silent stillness of the inmost luminous Heart in outpouring free Love, a living benediction, not for ourselves, not of ourselves, not of our doing but of This vast boundless all-embracing all-inclusive Love.

In prioritizing conscious union no matter what, our lives are a throbbing beacon of This Truth alive; of This Love everywhere here now; of Peace beyond mind’s understanding or the world’s making; of the Joy of Being This that only Is; of Freedom in the depths of experiencing all This Life Is. No matter what we may think or be conditioned to believe, nothing else matters, nothing else holds a candle to the Light of infinite suns, nothing else exists. Let This light, love and joy simply Be preeminent. All comes from, exists within, fulfills, completes, returns to and simply is This. 


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An Appointment With Radiance

I love this time of year: summer solstice season. This year we have a full moon so radiance by day, luminescence by night. Once I travelled in summer above the arctic circle to experience the solstice where night never comes. From sunrise to sunset to sunrise the sun shone unceasingly. Rising followed setting, setting followed rising and shining, morning and evening lost their meaning. It was all just daytime… the radiance playing in different positions throughout.

As this phrase, an appointment with radiance, bubbled up in my consciousness today I was drawn to sit in the sun on my porch flooded with morning’s rays. So powerful. So potent. So life-giving … So … Hot! ????

So this particular rainbow emanation body kept an appointment with radiance seemingly so pervasive in the outer realm this morning, still but a faint echo of the all-pervading radiance everything is. So the appointment with radiance turns into a daylong adventure. A daylong becomes day in and day out; day in and day out becomes lifelong adventure. The pure light venturing forth in a singular vast rainbow emanation body of pure Being. When the mind stills, the heart opens, the belly relaxes and this knowing awareness is self-evident. Now appearing everywhere!

 
Radiance always keeps its appointments. Radiance is always actively engaged by law, by decree expressing its nature, offering its infinite bounty, treasures galore. Ever here providing life-giving sustenance. To be conscious of This is to enter in and Be what is naturally radiant; to be LightHearted. We are appointed so to be. 

How do we keep our appointment? Do we have something else to do? Is there something else more important? We begin always by telling the truth and telling it until we get to the Truth that cannot be spoken. We engage in being aware, present to our mental, emotional, sensate activities, we let all that be as is and simply be aware, be aware of being aware, be in the discovery of Awareness, the simple clear light of radiance touching down in experience like sunlight touching the earth. 

No one can keep an appointment with radiance. We become aware of being radiant, of radiating, that what radiates is our own True Nature. We are that radiance radiating; This immanence emanating. Right here and now — not off in some transcendent other worldly realm somewhere else we have attained through devoted practice, but as our birthright; as what simply and already is. All our troubles & the troubles of the world are because this remains unknown and unseen, not valued in a materialistically bound consciousness. So few realize they have an appointment, it is already given.

 
So realization of what Is is encouraged. It’s the singular appointment of Being; the most important appointment we can keep but cannot take hold of or make happen – keeping it simple stupid, we KISSS every moment. We remain abiding in and as simple silent stillness that radiates This boundless Love. 
There’s profound simplicity, wise innocence and purity, pristine perfection in conscious union. All notions are dissolved, beyond all activity of mind, emotion, body recessed in the background while being encompassed, embraced, pervaded, and released — not of our doing. In the foreground, immanent, we rest in Peace radiating. And soon we find ourselves going about what we are appointed to do as the natural unfolding flowing activity of This radiant Being. There is a saying, “God perfects all I am appointed to accomplish.”

So, for example, we meet one another in the heart of This Truth as appointed so to do, and This naturally unfolds and perfects our meeting. Something hidden is revealed as we delve into the shadows, storm the bastions of befuddled fogginess; like a treasure hunt, we find refracting gems of deliverance sparkling in the light. We live, grow, flow and dance unfolding in the glow of Being in the know: only This Is. So simple and absolutely true; only This Is. How would we live if we absolutely knew this were true? We live the Joy of Being from fulfillment to fulfillment as that is how This rolls.

We start where we are. We realize that the most important thing is keeping our appointment with radiance. We place it in our busy overfull calendars as priority #1, first & foremost arranging our lives around it. We sprinkle our day with sparkles of radiance, infusing us and our surroundings consciously with the actuality of This Being This here now regardless of appearances to the contrary – that activity of the blind conditioned mind – we let that be and quieten, rest, bask in the sun like an old dog, aahhh, laying everything down, stretching out, expanding, opening, receiving warming rays for another breath, aaahhh…

We shift focus from the mind and its world of troubles negligent of keeping appointments with radiance: This with and ultimately living as us as This radiant Being of lighthearted nature all but completely forgotten in the hurly-burly. Our forgetting is forgiven instantly, we are here now. We lie back letting the living daylight penetrate until our bones are baking. Everything melts away and we melting merge. Only This, only This breath by breath, heartbeat by heartbeat.

Then fully rested and restored we naturally arise and shine and give forth This glory, glory hallelujah! We are essentially perfected like a diamond pearl shining luminescence, reflecting and refracting as given. Going about our business letting This perfectly accomplish all we are appointed to do, radiantly, Grace-fully, naturally. 

It all begins now right here. Not just reading & evaluating words on a page or a screen but going to where they point, opening, experiencing in your own way the expressed experience radiating in these words. Make like an old dog and bask in the radiance even if the weather is cloudy & stormy — the sun is still shining, even in the darkest night, radiance shines. The clear luminous night sky still is even when seemingly impenetrably cloudy. Be still and wait for it, penetration happens because that is the nature of radiance. Dawn comes. Daylight abounds always. 

This is alive and only has been pretending to believe it’s you alone in the dark. So, just like an old dog that just can’t wait to find that warm sunny spot and lie down letting the warmth penetrate, keep your appointment as given by radiance, by the grace of Being This that only Is. 

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Fool Hearty

Unreasonable Joy

In the radiant dawning of Now

Doesn’t mind no thing…

All objects of mind come & go

While Light ever shines 

In emptiness. 
No idea of thoughtless knowing

will ever be grasped by the mind that arises from within

and subsides like a wave. 
The still point center

The eye of the needle

While the tapestry of life weaves

Itself inclusively in deep aliveness, joy abounding

Actively engaged Love loving Life –

The ever-changing formless form – as Is, just perception 

After all…
Nothing is real. 

Nothing unreal exists. 
Who practices?

Who is vigilant?

Who is positive 

Or positively unsure of anything? 

The mind thinks there is an answer, a way to do This, something to find like many things it believes that aren’t so to stave off not being anyone not knowing and not doing anything. Whence comes such? 
The end of the relation teacher-student is nigh … Vigilance, resolve, sitting to drown in Silence are natural movements of Life’s inherent Being. 
Papaji said, “the guru is within, abiding in Silence, speaking the language of no words.” And he encouraged everyone to speak and fail utterly to express the inexpressible. How wonderful! “No teacher, no teaching, no student” just This magnanimous play of consciousness in vivid display of ever-changing form of formlessness born. The mind can find no reason for it for it’s beyond reason … 

Unreasonable Joy endlessly limitlessly dawning in and through us, all Life in full conscious awareness loving every minute no matter what shape or form the mind thinks it sees or knows something about, likes or dislikes, seeks, grasps, avoids. 
The mind is conditioned to want & seek what it doesn’t have … Peace, freedom, love, truth, joy. Isn’t that curious? Conditions are such that our systems are contracted around the opposite pole of scarcity, not having, missing something essential and searching for it outside, in “externals.” Eventually exhausting itself and falling into the black hole of missing something. This isn’t actually depression, though it can feel like it. People are afraid to go here because it means something to a resisting-the-end-of-its-domination identified mind staving off glorious emptiness. 
Is it time to join the foolhearty and yield, have you exhausted yourself trying to find a happiness you can grasp & understand, control & manage? Who knows? Perhaps this right now is the moment you stop all strategies and appreciate the dawning deep within the darkness of no self no other no mind no doer and none of the above. Such a mystery of deLight! Such a mind stopping paradox! It’s not the mind’s job to figure This out – can’t. It’s usefulness is otherwise … Wise. Used by Wisdom… Explicating the inexplicable! ???? what fun! This Is the Mystery: This making Itself explicit inexplicably❣ En-Joy the Mystery unfolding perfectly as you right here & now. Why not? Is there anything left to lose? Hmmm… ????

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