BIG* Helping of Humble Pie

Universal Life Serving Up Some Humble Pie!

My recent ingestion of PIE (Presence Incorporating Everything) regarding car and finances was handled so beautifully by Grace acting through several of The Belovèd kin I Am has offered broadening deepening realization. Realization is a system upgrade: no one is becoming more realized, the system is undergoing transformational upgrades only, always.
Finding my experience rich with knowledge brought forward over the years and yet nothing beats the aliveness of this moment and the current penetration of Presence taking up the system into an as yet unknown FUNctional (Freedom Unlimited Now) Wholeness. *By Infinite Grace (BIG), This unfolds it’s natural Perfection only always consistently constantly. Our systems accept it though relaxed conscious open receptivity and the natural evolution of This in form within the time-space continuum is affected at all levels Holyfractalgraphically. What this means is that from the minutiae of the smallest particle, referred to as the Plank particle, or Adamantine particles, the pure Substance of Being, spiraling up to the gross levels of our fantastic inter dimensional bodies of consciousness all the way out to the astronomical, and inclusive of the formless Presence, the entirety of our deep ecological system of unity consciousness is effected. The hologram in which each particle contains all the information of the whole is a fractal in which patterns reoccur in progressively smaller scales. In realization experiences, our conditioned systems are relieved of improper conditioning to the false. Inhabited by a false god, the ego (edging God out — ego) full of continuing reception of false information: the collective disagreement field of separation consciousness, the system is systematically and graciously being brought to rights. In other words, beyond the capacity of our linear rational minds, the realizing and actualizing Presence is at work though experience to bring all of the incredible display of consciousness into accurate formation, naturally, because This Is what it Is.  Our systems are utilized to the fullest degree in shifting the resonance of the collective whole, the Holyfractalgram of existence.
My recent foray into the holodeck program (thanks Gene Roddenberry) and divine dramedy of car trouble and appearance of inadequate finances which was quite a historical encounter that set my system into a floundering not experienced for quite awhile has brought forth the “calling it real” confounding conundrum of human life. I cannot preach “let it be and unfold as it is and engage consciously” without walking the talk, and the walk that day was difficult. I knew I was in trouble already on my early morning first light walk with my suddenly recalcitrant dog trying to get it done before I left home for the appointment with the car. Dear Koie was actually a reflection of my own recalcitrance about what it has taken to get the heater on my car fixed. My efforts to get Koie to come so I could get going into town were all for naught. It became all too clear that he was not coming anywhere near me just because I needed him to; because I was supposed to get somewhere by 8 am and had to leave him home for the day. As I drove to town I realized that my energies were being guided by the external. Even now I see more ways in which the inner flow was abandoned and differing motivations were running the system. So by the time the car got to Durango I was already eating Humble Pie and quite enjoying the humility offered. Found it both bemusing and delectably nourishing. Had a big dollop of joyous jubilation to go with it.
Went off to Durango Joe’s to hang out with good cheer on this cold winter’s morning. About two hours later the call came in, thermostat’s also broken, needs replaced so the engine doesn’t overheat and blow up, another 190 dollars or something which I could not quite take in, felt my energy drop as I watched the idea of the tenuousness of my financial state rear it’s ugly head again. I could not make myself marshal the forces of God to obliterate the thoughts and fearful anticipations. My state had changed once again affected by the external appearance regarding the area that has perpetually challenged and been a source of realization for years. I walked into the holodeck in a semiconscious state beleaguered by the constant situation of joyously gifted gifting and inadequate FU-UNding — quite a contrast for one so richly endowed. Very aware in the real rawness of emotional reaction, physical actions that I was “in it” and noticing that it was so hard to let it unfold itself, hands off the wheel, while not indulging, a kind of razor’s edge. The experiencing of burning humiliation being the theme of this Winter Solstice gateway now for me, together with sadness, frustration, doubt, fear, wavelet after wavelet of emotions flowing through, watching the belief where I thought enough donations had come in to get me through the month and possibly to the first of the month bills evaporate once again. Didn’t quite evaporate into pulsating formless abundance in my consciousness, though. Have to tell the truth here.
“How is it possible that I am still dealing with this?” The evidence is clear: because it’s still vibrating in my system as real, an experiential felt sense of scarcity still plagues. It was a strange day, ill-at-ease day, just here with the unfolding, the desire for comfort, the “if I were a drinker I’d be driven to drink by this!” burning in the desire to binge. Ach! So painful! Kindness coming from friends, very nice, but not touching the pain — as I write this now, it’s an old pain of this lifetime of no mother commensurate with the profound sense of Divine Mother, the all-embracing enfolding One that lives here now. A friend recently shared the experience of physical bonding that occurred when she got to be with her birth mother recently. Keenly felt that there’s no one left with my genetics except the children of my half brother and sister, and no one replaces the birth mother. Some adoptive parents are wonderful, and some birth mothers are awful, and the reverse is also true. There’s just no particularly easy way of dealing with our human creature-hood that longs for what it didn’t get. Fortunately, Grace is available.
This is why spiritual kin are so important. Being with those who understand life in a similar fashion, are engaged with it in Essence and can share experience in safety, mutual understanding and grace, for when we are in the holodeck we need someone to come along and say, “End program!” It may still be unfolding, it doesn’t always work, but at least the Light has come along in a real and consequential way to say, “This isn’t all there is to this.” Star Trek Next Generation, “End Program…Now!!!”
If we’re really lucky, someone knows how to Be Presence fully and in unconditioned conscious contact remains with us with good reflections, good questions, profound patience, Silence and Stillness that allow us to dive deep into our experience, dropping all the way through the abysmal black Whole. The very real expertise of being no one doing nothing allows Presence to vibrate in the Truth that is emerging into the distressed person’s system such that it is simply already actualizing in the Unified Field. The morphogenic resonance of our True Nature embodying in joyous loving responsiveness activates in the Companion’s system what is needed for restoration. The adept system which is open and receptive naturally incorporates and feeds, offers what is needed without thought, strategy, motivation to help or heal, but in the realization what is needed is already so.
We need one another to Be This actualizing Presence, This Immanence of Being so it is Real in a fully human way, embodied and lived. The True Companion Is within us all, and at this time of year we celebrate Its return, Its holy birth within each and every one of us, within the planet’s core. It is Our Collective coming forth of the Light onto the planet, into this human realm of existence. Many of us miss it, or don’t even know what the annual cycle of Return and Emergence actually is, let alone consciously participate. We get all caught up in and stressed about holiday gatherings and celebrations driven to distraction by externals dictating our every move in what has become an exceedingly materialistic show.

Christmas Fractal

The saga with my wonderful car isn’t over, but the loveliness of the unfolding included $600 of donations coming in by the end of that very same day! Absolutely blew away most of the residuals of the day’s difficulties. Some few leftovers of Humble Pie are clarifying and being consumed in the course of this writing, This Expressing. The richness of the Real includes our very human experiences. Experiencing is the amazing feedback loop of This pure formlessness in direct communion with Itself in ever-changing formations that reflect consciousness, collective and individual in remarkable ways. The incredible mutual benefit of the dynamism of the Infinite Invisible with the Visible is of unsurpassable magnificence, far outshining the material realm on its own, but illuminating the material in glories of pure Being that astound.
What is the point to this Solstice Christmas Story? Each one reading will come to their own heart of the matter and I would love to hear them. For this particular emanation body, the open system of This embodying impregnating, birthing, emerging, evolving, growing, maturing Wisdom and Compassion and all the riches of This Unfolding Natural Perfection: deepening trust, shades of disconnection and scarcity residuals brought into the ever unfolding enfolding Holyfractalgraphic Fold, the redeeming Wholeness of Being This that Only Is. Simply put, “quietness and confidence shall be thy strength.” Am so happy that whenever needed, these BIG helpings of humble pie come to the table. What a thanksgiving feast!

About Anrael

Anrael is currently operating this LightHearted adoration ministry supporting transformation of consciousness, from homosapien(overly mental) to homoluminous (shining as Heart of Being coherently), bringing forth renewed species and new earth. Anrael has worked in spiriting and inspiring well-Being professionally since 1975 in lots of different venues with wide range of populations from womb to tomb. She is an explorer in consciousness since 1968. She has two masters degrees, EdM, MSW and trainings too numerous to mention. She has practiced and studied many wisdom traditions along with science and psychology in wide range of modalities resulting in interdimensional holyfractalgraphic direct embodied experience that moves through the Allness we are and includes Totality and Actuality vividly alive as Is. The wonders of social science, psychology, working in and through relationship, and physics, holography and cosmometry—all dancing fullness and emptiness in a vulnerable openness completely supported by the transcendent that is fully immanent: Being This fully alive and completely real NowHere fullfilling our limitless potential. All This she enjoys sharing in union with This with each and all in a variety of ways: individually, with couples, groups, speaking, writing, simply Being with what is, sharing blessings of conscious union. 🙏💖
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